Sovereignty of God

Sometime I think that we tend to believe that we are the main characters in the story of our life, that God is just an added “extra” in our story, granted He may be an important “extra” but nonetheless there can only be one “main character” in the story of our life, and sadly, most of the time that is me. I think a lot of times we say the we surrendered our life to God, but it is hard to really see your life as completely surrendered. Do you really surrender your role as the main character? It is very hard sometimes to see my life as just an extra in God’s story. As an amazing blessing as this is, it is still hard for my prideful, American, ‘it’s all about me” lifestyle to grasp. When painful things happen in our life, it is very easy to ask, “how a loving God could allow this to happen?” The question takes on a completely different outlook when you approach it with the mindset that we are an extra in God’s story. Ultimately, whatever happens, as painful as it may be, God can turn it back to His Glory. Now, this may sound all fluffy and nice, but this doesn’t mean we wont experience pain, hurt, and disappointment, but we don't have to experience it alone.

I can only begin to imagine the vast difference of emotion that God is feeling when He looks upon different painful situations in my life. The emotions I feel after Austin’s death are so very contrasting and almost contradicting.

I am happy that Austin is no longer hurting and that God created an amazing story out of Austin’s life and death; but I am sad, very sad, that I don’t get to see his face every morning, that I don’t get to smile everyday as I watch him play with Gracelyn, and that I don’t get to stay up late talking and sharing with my brother.

I am at peace as I see God’s hand in Austin’s story, and that God was able to teach me so much during this time, and I am peaceful with understanding more about the sovereignty of God; but I am fearful, fearful of the unknown, I am fearful of what could happen in my life that would cause more pain.

I am so unbelievable excited when I think back and share about all the events in Austin’s life and what God taught us all during the month of June, I am excited to see how God is going to continue to use Austin’s story to heal, help, and bring hope to others; but I am also depressed, depressed that he is gone, depressed that Gracelyn will never know her uncle, and depressed that Austin never got to experience the joy of Christ while living on this earth.

I do not think that God caused the death of Austin, but I do believe that He used and is using the hurt, pain, and fear Austin felt, and the hurt, pain and fear I feel now for His Glory and His Goodness.

I have been reading over the story of Joseph in Genesis the past few weeks. This story is such a perfect example of the sovereignty of God amongst human choices. Joseph was sold into slavery by his brothers, and after 20 something years, he is reunited with his brothers when they come to the town to get food for the famine. The enter into Egypt to buy grain from the governor of the land, whom happened to be the brother they sold into slavery years ago. God was with Joseph, even with the evil actions of his brothers, God was with Joseph, and brought him out of slavery, out of prison, and into the palace to become the governor of the land. When Joseph confronts his brothers he says to them, You sold me, you did this to me, but God, God sent me!

“As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive as they are today.” Genesis 50:20

David Platt shared a very good explanation on how these two opposites, can coincide with one another:

“God did it all. Now how does this work? How can the brothers sell him and God send him? This is where we see, in the Old Testament and all throughout Scripture, two unexplainable friends. First, divine sovereignty, “God sent me. God did this. God sent me to be a slave, to be a prisoner. God did all of this.” So, God is in control of this whole picture, sovereign over the whole picture. But that does not mean that the brothers had nothing to do with it. Second, divine sovereignty and human responsibility, “You sold me into slavery. You decided to do that. You made a choice.” And so the picture here is divine sovereignty and human responsibility, both side by side. Now how do you reconcile those two together? Unexplainable, but undeniable. It’s all throughout Scripture. It’s the mystery of divine sovereignty and human responsibility, and we must be careful. The conclusion here that we’ve got to come to, based on this picture in Scripture, the responsibility of man cannot be ignored. We’ve got to be careful when we think about the sovereignty of God not to begin to think that we’re just puppets in a play, robotically doing whatever is mandated that we do. We have responsibility. We have choices that we are held responsible for. This is evident. The responsibility of man cannot be ignored. We are all responsible for the actions, decisions, choices we make. Responsibility of man cannot be ignored. At the same time, the will of God cannot be thwarted. God will carry out what He intends, guaranteed. Even in the worst of circumstances – slavery and an imprisoned dungeon – Joseph says, “God sent me here.” Divine sovereignty, human responsibility; the will of God cannot be thwarted. God intends things.”

So as I continue to feel the vast array of different emotions I hold onto the truth that God is sovereign; even in the pain, hurt, and fear. He is Lord.