Friday, June 10, 2011

God is working!!

I have never seen God more at work than I have the past few weeks. One of the things that I have prayed most for in my life has been for my older brother, A. I have blogged a few times about him and you can read those old entries from here: June 2010 and March 2011. I have received permission from A to post this entry.

My brother has struggled almost his whole life with depression, bipolar disorder and addictions. There has been numerous suicide attempts, many extended hospital stays, and rehab treatments. Nothing has ever worked, or really changed anything. I have always said that I believe God has saved my brother in the miraculous ways he has for a reason. My brother has always been an atheist and wanted NOTHING to do with even a conversation about God.

About a month ago my brother called and asked if he could come down for a visit. We were hesitant at first because we knew he was back into drugs. Tim & I prayed about him coming down and agreed that his life and his salvation was worth much more than anything he could steal or take from us. While down here, Austin expressed how badly he wanted to get clean and into a rehab. I have heard this many times but I still found him a treatment center here in town (2 hours from where he lives). He was able to get in a few days later.

While in rehab my brother seemed very open and excited about treatment. He even stated that he felt that there could even be a Higher Power. This is HUGE for my brother because he has ALWAYS been against the idea. After being in rehab for 3 weeks he got out and had nowhere to go.

The night before he was released, Aaron, Julie, Tim & I had a "family meeting" to discuss the different ministry opportunities we wanted to do over the next year. We had no idea Austin was going to be getting out the next morning, but we discussed when he got out if we would allow him to stay with us. We talked out the logistics, the boundaries we would put into place, and we prayed, hard.

The next morning Austin called and said he was out. I went and picked him up and told him as long as he followed our boundaries and rules he could stay with us until he got on his feet.

The first night was amazing. God showed up in an amazing way. We were able to just sit down with Austin and pour out our hearts to him about how much we love him and how much we love our God. He actually listened and participated in our conversation. At the end we asked to pray for him and he agreed. We began praying and unexpectedly Austin joined us in prayer. He even muttered the words I never thought I would ever hear from him, "I love you God." I was floored by my God's goodness and grace.

A has been with us for two weeks and everyday has been such a blessing to witness God working in his life in such amazing ways. He found a sponsor who is such a blessing. It has been so great to drop him off at a meeting every night and then to come home and be so happy to tell us all about what he has been learning and what God has been doing. Although A is still trying to figure out who God is, God is working. He is working and shaping and changing.

I am so amazed and blessed at how God has orchestrated all of this out in His timing for His Glory. There is SO much more to this story and how God has been working the past few weeks. I will post more and time goes on, but for now please continue to pray for A, his sponsor, and us.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Through His Power & For His Glory

We have finally moved in!

This past week was a very stressful and busy one but it is over, and we are moved into our new home for the next year. We are so excited for what God is going to do!

The move started off with its fair share of trails and speed bumps. We knew that spiritual warfare would occur when we decided to move in, but I guess I just was not prepare for the battle that would take place in my own heart.

Immediately after moving in, my convictions seem to go on the back burner while this new unquenchable desire for the new things I "needed" for our apartment was at the forefront. Besides all the stress and physical weariness of moving, my soul was very weary. I just felt like I needed A, B, and C and I could not live without them. I was battling with my fleshly desires which made me very frustrated since of course on my own, I fail.

In this frustration, I found myself being very annoyed, short, and frustrated with Tim, Aaron and Julie. My heart was truly in a battle I didn't want to seem to acknowledge it. I have never felt such a pull or disconnect before but my attitude suffered because of it. All the sudden things that would not usually bother me, I now couldn't sleep because I was so mad.

After a wonderful talk and prayer time with Tim on Saturday night and a wonderful talk and prayer time with Aaron & Julie yesterday we were able to set things right by the grace of God. I am so amazed by how much He is working, and I am SO glad that He has a handle of what He wants to do over this next year, because I know I sure can't do it on my own!

After prayer and talking during our "family meeting" last night, we (Tim, Aaron, Julie & I) were able to brainstorm different ministry opportunities we would like to pray about doing this next year. It was very exciting to see our list grow and grow and know that God is going to do big things!

As we pray and seek God for what He would have us do this next year I ask you all to please be praying for us. The enemy is working very hard to distract us and make us comfortable. Pray that we would not be comfortable, pray that we would stay focused on God and accomplish great things through His power and for His glory.