Broken

Broken.

Why am I so afraid of this concept? Why is this look down upon? I am strong. Many people have said to me in my battle with my health, "You are so strong Abby." Although they have always had good intentions, Im done trying to be strong. I have been trying to be strong my whole life. I have been trying to be the one people can go to with their problems, the one people can lean on. But I am oh so weak. and the mask of strength is coming off.

One definition of broken is: "out of order: no longer in working condition"

Why do we fear being out of order? What if I am no longer in working condition?
I AM BROKEN.

Why do we fear being broken? We have to obviously know that we can't do it right? but yet we still tend to try. at least I do.

My eyes were open to the concept of brokenness this weekend. Why does God give some people so much hurt?
In according to hurt and pain, for the past 6 years I have always seemed to hear Christians say, "God does not give you more than you can handle." Right?

Wrong.

"God will put heavier burdens on you than you can bear, especially when He is trying to bring you to a place of brokenness. God will allow the burden to be greater than you can bear so that you will FINALLY allow Him to bear it for you." -Steve McVey

God doesn't just give you strength, God IS your strength.
"God doesn't do good, God is good."

God doesnt seem to have any intention of helping me to be stronger. He wants me to be weaker so that "He can express Himself as the strength I need."


Why is brokenness seen as a bad thing? I am broken. I am not strong. I cannot do this. I will fail. My mask of strength is gone.

For I am Broken.